I really don’t even know where to begin. I’ve been coming back and forth to my computer for a couple days now knowing it’s time to write a new blog but not knowing what to say.
It’s been a long year.
Monday marked a full year since I left my small hometown and boarded a plane on my way to meet a bunch of other humans as crazy as myself, all of us with an idea in our minds about what the next 27 months would bring us. Today marks 365 days since I stepped off a plane with those same crazy humans and began living that 27 months; lets just say I could have never imagine this life I’ve been living.
2018 was a hard year.
Besides the obvious of leaving everything I’ve ever known to live in a foreign place, do foreign things, and speak a foreign language, I feel I’ve faced trails I would have never encountered had I not been here surrounded by previous said things. While some of these have made me a stronger individual, others have left me feeling less then sure of myself, my abilities, and my purpose here in this very interesting stage of my life. I’ve spent a lot of time with myself, more then I think any human is comfortable spending with himself or herself. I was and still am very thankful for the opportunity to have spent the holidays at home. It was just what I needed to ring in the New Year with friends and family that I have missed so much.
A new year means a fresh start.
Not only a fresh start for the last leg of my journey, but a fresh start for the attitude I keep, the people I surround myself with, and the decisions I choose to make in order to be happy, because this year has to be better then last year right?
This year will be better.
Since being back from being home I have made a lot of plans for this last year. Part of those plans include knowing that there will be a lot of times in my village where I have nothing going on; making plans to not have plans. This year I’m trying to accept the down time and fill it with personal projects, i.e. finding things I like to do, maybe making a new friends or 2, and also working on myself (aka personal project haha). I came back accepting that I have a year left to fulfill and while some days that feels like forever I remember that this day currently marks a year already fulfilled, I can do this. While I still have awhile to think about what I want to do I have begun making plans for things I hope to do after finishing my commitment here. Since it is still early I won’t get into all the possibilities; I don’t want to jinx any of them but I am excited to hopefully start getting some things figured out.
As always I appreciate everyone who helped me make it through this last year, I truly don’t know what I would have done without you because I know I sure as hell wasn’t strong enough to handle some of those things on my own. I hope that this year I will be better at reciprocating that help.
One year down. One year to go!